Day one of Placement...Sweaty, but chill

In other words, it was like a heat wave, and ick windows and running around didn't exactly help much, but it wasnt as bad as I presumed.

It was busy though, thats a given, but I didn't kill myself trying to do stuff myself and I didn't have somebody looming over me questioning "so what do you think you're doing now ?" and you just feel like smiling at them behind gritted teeth "I'm milking a flippin' cow - what does it look like ?!" Ugh yeah y'know what I mean.

I hope I get on with my preceptors. And it'll be a bonus if I get my medication management done this placement so I won't be worrying so much. Gonna meet one of my preceptors tomorrow (She's a CNM - eek ?) and see what she says. Hope she likes me. The patients did, and so did most relatives and nurses, I think......I do think I gave off a lot of positive energy from having low expectations of the ward, and be magically "surprised" when I realise that it's not toooo bad. I guess it's also a masking mechanism for the mini disaster this morning....Bro feigned a headache so he didnt have to drive me to work.....I got so upset, I just went out, just in time to get the bus. My poor mum was so worried she went out after me....ugh. Then I felt really guilty for making her worry on top of everything. Then He gave out to everyone, and suggested at dinner that I take the bus in the morning = wake up at 5:45am = thanks for the support, bro.

Guys, it's really no problem, I had never requested Bro to drive me, it was all dad's suggestion. Then it was suddenly, ooh moqi the meanie is making him get up early.....I never said "no", mind. Of course it's wayyyy more comfy to be driven to work. Besides, Bro always comes back home and sleep till 1pm or so, so it's not like forcing him to get up and not letting him sleep. I can understand it's annoying buh duude.....ugh I dunno how hated I am in this household and now I just don't care. I was sooooo happy coming home after along hard dehydrated day and then halfway through dinner being told I was useless and mentally retarded just made me wonder....why am I happy again ?

Tomorrow, then two days off. Classsssssssssssssssss.

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*godspeed*
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moqi

ɯod!