woww ._.

i actually missed a day of blogging.....which is kinda random considering that i do this on a daily basis. i guess nights can really wreck ur mind a bit ehh ._.

So i've decided not to work in this hospital anymore, I want a change of environment, so I'm gonna look for a place in my local nursing home and do my 6 months.....The rest of the story ? I haven't a clue.

I will ask my ex ex preceptor who will be on nightshift tonight for that reference she had for me aaaages ago. hopefully she still has it. I'm gonna email it along with my CV and pray to high solar systems that they will take me ._.

what other thing is new....I couldn't blog ealier on, everything went very microsoft word and I couldn't click anything. I'm aware that I have an assignment todo....it will be commenced on Thursday when I come back from my bloody nightshift. And yes it will be done on time. As always.

I have never felt more alone....

Actually that is a lie.

I have always felt alone.

Being lonely....is part of my life....

Ditto feeling isolated from everyone else.

When things are going good and everyones happy......I'm surrounded by people.

But when life is shit and I get upset....I'm on my own. Nobody cares....nobody talks back.....nobody stands up for me. Not even my own mum.

So these 6 nights were hell.....every single day is a drag. I start my nights wanting to die, wanting to just fly fly fly away......and end them knowing I've got more to go. I'm fake, I have to do the job that I despise.....and I dont get along with the peeps there. But I try I try so so so hard. Does nobody even fuckin realise ?

I start off my nights being told off about how stupid retarded mentally challenged intellectually disabled handicapped and useless I really am. Yes you make me breakfast.....but it's never the breakfast I want to have. You plan what I'm gonna have.\ Who cares if I'm not hungry, who cares if I dont like it ? Its "for my own good" and if it's "good" for me then I should accept it without questioning, and be grateful. What I want is never important anyway.

I come home in the morning and the routine is similar. Yes I am tired as hell but I better hurry up and just get on with it so I can have my dinner and not waste other people's time. Then I have to go to bed at the time they want me to so yeah. Freedom ftw.

So he lets us watch a dvd (woww) until midnight so that I can adjust my bodyclock (which is good, but I didnt want to watch it). He doesnt know I use the laptop and I left the broadband thing on because, well....that's what you do. But to him Im wasting electricity so he switched it off and gave out tome. him and bro drinks beer and I say I want some. So I go to get a bottle and of course bro says loudly dad will know and of course he asks bro whats with the shouting and of course bro tells him and of course he starts screaming about what a horrible slut I am and I should commit suicide and all. Oh, and he scrunched up the fathers day card and put it on my desk. Thats how much its worth.

And thats how much I worth.

Last Night Shift....for now

yeshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ._.

A....

is for awkward ._. Check out the awkward animal range by Wong Fu...

http://areyouaniceguy.com/collections/awkward-animal

and

http://areyouaniceguy.com/collections/plush

I speak Canto when I'm nervous :s I forget things easily :s I always say ohh in realisation :s my patient fell today and even though it's not really my fault and theres nothing I could've done that I didn't do....it just. doesnt. look. good.

ugh.

Having ahellotta girly problems....

...namely that time of the month problemos, complete with getting frustrated at a patient who pressed the bell 22 times by 1am just to pull up her sheet which she is perfectly capable of doing. Sighhhh.

Then bitching with that patient's equally frustrated neighbour who could bear her demands no more and did the bell press counting haha.

Broke a nail and had to the the ones off that hand, got bored and refused to do the other hand ._.

Woke up with my hair a little crazy last night, tried flattening with water,  but no. Anyway everybody else likes it so blehhh.

Facebook Ascii Collection - Father's Day

Thought I should write a wee disclaimer to cover my ass, legs, spine and whatnot eh ._.

DISCLAIMER: None of the below are created by me...I have been very bold and shamelessly stole them from this site right here--> http://facebook-emoticons-symbols.blogspot.com/
or if you cant find it on the first page, click around and you'll find it somewhere. I've stolen everything from them the poor unsuspecting souls.

This is so that I can easily copy and paste the like wherever and whenever I want without scrolling and clicking around wildly. Purpose of evolution can have side-effects such as laziness....

But you didn't need me to tell you that.....did you ? o.O

Enjoy this Father's Day Collection ^^v

Happy father's day:
нαρρу ƒαтнєя'ѕ ∂αу
ɧąþþγ ∱ąŧɧεŗ'ş đąγ
հձթթყ բձէհεг'ร ժձყ
ʎɐp s,ɹǝ4ʇɐɟ ʎddɐӇ
HΔƤƤΨ FΔƬHΣΓ'Ѕ DΔΨ
んﾑｱｱﾘ ｷﾑｲん乇尺'丂 Ðﾑﾘ
ɦǟքքʏ ʄǟȶɦɛʀ'ֆ ɖǟʏ
ӇƛƤƤƳ ƑƛƬӇЄƦ'Ƨ ƊƛƳ
ἬᾋƤƤὛ ҒᾋҬἬἝȒ'Ṩ ƉᾋὛ
ⓗⓐⓟⓟⓨ ⓕⓐⓣⓗⓔⓡ'ⓢ ⓓⓐⓨ
[̲̅h̲̅][̲̅a̲̅][̲̅p̲̅][̲̅p̲̅][̲̅y̲̅] [̲̅f̲̅][̲̅a̲̅][̲̅t̲̅][̲̅h̲̅][̲̅e̲̅][̲̅r̲̅]'[̲̅s̲̅] [̲̅d̲̅][̲̅a̲̅][̲̅y̲̅]

I love you father:
ι ℓσνє уσυ ƒαтнєя
ι ♥ уσυ ƒαтнєя
ï ℓσ√ε γσų ∱ąŧɧεŗ
Ɩ ԼƠƔЄ ƳƠƲ ƑƛƬӇЄƦ
ɹǝ4ʇɐɟ noʎ ǝʌoן ı
ï ﾚ⊕∀ε ψ⊕u ƒα†hεr
ⓘ ⓛⓞⓥⓔ ⓨⓞⓤ ⓕⓐⓣⓗⓔⓡ
[̲̅i̲̅] [̲̅l̲̅][̲̅o̲̅][̲̅v̲̅][̲̅e̲̅] [̲̅y̲̅][̲̅o̲̅][̲̅u̲̅] [̲̅f̲̅][̲̅a̲̅][̲̅t̲̅][̲̅h̲̅][̲̅e̲̅][̲̅r̲̅]

I love you dad:
ι ℓσνє уσυ ∂α∂
ï ℓσ√ε γσų đąđ
ï ♥ γσų đąđ
I LΘƲΣ ΨΘƱ DΔD
i lΦvę ყΦЦ DǞD
Ἷ ĿὋVἝ ὛὋȖ ƉᾋƉ
Ī Ŀ♡ѴƐ Y♡Ʊ DΛD
[̲̅i̲̅] [̲̅l̲̅][̲̅o̲̅][̲̅v̲̅][̲̅e̲̅] [̲̅y̲̅][̲̅o̲̅][̲̅u̲̅] [̲̅d̲̅][̲̅a̲̅][̲̅d̲̅]

• Father's day facebook symbols banners:

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♫ .♥.•* ★¨`*•♫.•´*.¸.•´♥ ♫
☀ Happy ☀ Fathers ☀ Day ☀
♫ .♥.•* ☀¨`*•♫.•´*.¸☀.•´♥
┊ ┊┊ ┊☀┊ ┊ ┊┊ ☀ه
ه┊ ☀ ┊ ┊ ི♥ྀ
☀ ┊┊ ☀ه
ه┊ ☀

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╚═════════════ ஜ۩۞۩ஜ ════════════╝

•*´¨`*•.¸¸.•*´¨`*•.¸¸.•*´¨`*•.¸¸.•*´¨`*•.¸¸.•
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• Facebook symbols big shapes. Father's day ascii art:


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You would hate

• going into a week of nights, knowing that you will be on nights for a day the week after, and that you have a literature review due the week after that
• not getting along with the nurse working with you, mildly put, stress does kill
• your patient suddenly going gaga on you
• going home late
• arrive home and be told how retarded and crap you are for 20 minutes....

oh well ._.

This is the longest time I've ever stayed in bed....

ever since I could walk and apart from the times when I was sick......

Welcome to the world of nightshifts ._.

Father's Day

I totally forgot it was Father' Day today.

I slept late last night, overslept, and only remembered this morning/afternoon when I saw the Google slogan (those things are good reminders so they are ._.)

So I googled some pictures there and then, copied, cropped, pasted, printed, cutted and pieced them into this rather effortless piece of lousy excuse called a Father's Day card wtf with my horrible Chinese scribbled inside.

But when I gave it to him, he was so so so happy. And even though half the time I wished he was dead, that happiness hit a cord somewhere in my circulatory system. It was no masterpiece, but it was the thought that counted. Ehhhh......

Message to Himself...

Dad, there were never that many words between us, unless we argue. We clash because we're the same kind of people in a way....strong-headed, hot-blooded, fiery-tempered mysterious, paranoid, idealists craving for affection from others and a place to call our own. I never know how to please you or make you proud. All I know is that.... I will always be your little daughter.
爸 父親節快樂.

Hurt your fingers day...

Pricked my index finger while packing away badge
Almost broke nail on middle finger on tree bark walking down steps (I have an odd phobia)
Ring finger got bitten my Gerbie (that little moron <3)
Electrocuted baby finger on fence at a rather unusual farm pet shop while entertaining a male deer
Slammed thumb in the drawer while trying like your average awkward 21-er trying for the first time to learn how to skate

._.

Twas a bucket of funn ^-^

I'm

so so so so so so so so so so so so so so tired
have been so so so so so so so so so so so so so so frustrated
and so so so so so so so so so so so so so so sad
but im so so so so so so so so so so so so so so off
and it's just so so so so so so so so so so so so so so worth it

(:

Happy Friday peeps

The Best Part of today....

...is that it's bloody over. And my bet is that all the staff on the ward feels the same.

In fairness, my section is calm in comparison to the other Crazy people section in High Dependency, but is it my time management, or my overly nice-and-politeness that made me fall down today. Had a talk with my preceptor who is just so so nice, went over the stuff I need to work on and yeah....I just felt retarded at the end of it all.

Like I'm always down with the time management....You'd think at this stage, 3rd placement, one more to go, and I should be grand..???? Ok so three patients needed help, one was going home, and the other three were fairly independent.....ugh. I feel crap, especially when you feel you've done nothing but you have and you're just exhausted, and you need to document, and then someone else finds something wrong about one patient, and the other patient is vomiting and having diarrhoea, and the other nurses are sooooo nice and are doing the stuff that you should be doing while you're standing there like a lost sheep........Ugh.

Anyway, tomorrow is my last 3-days-in-a-row. I'll be in with the same patients and I'll aim to do a hell lot better. Expect the worst to happen. Get everything done in a jiffy......Or at least try. Get multiple bedpans and blah. Always think...this could be worse. And I'll be grannd. I'll be grand.

Mum topped me up on Lucozade and chocolate orange (she's such a star <3she doesnt even realise how much I appreciate it, really) so I'm all high on sugars and not able to sleep so could do a wee bit of studying....I'll save the rest for tomorrow when I come back (:

Wish me a nice day folks !

Total Lunar Eclipse

If you miss it today...
...you're gonna have to see it in four years time.......
......it's too cloudy

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If I'm labelled lazy, then Bro must be dead

Truth of the matter is not that we both sleep like koalas, but neither of us wants to get up depressed and see him. In other words, the longer we stay in bed, the lesser we live a life in his world. Which almost makes me glad to be working 3 days in a roll starting tomorrow. I said almost.

Funny how I used to live with it like the norm, but now I actually learn that people are allowed to choose what they want for their breakfast. It even annoys me that I do not have this right at home, and angers me to make me feel ashamed to secretly have something different....

Reading back on that paragraph makes me feel retarded ._. up the retards.

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*godspeed*
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moqi
ɯod!

My Monday Off

I was dying for a bit of chocolate just when Mum handed me a Terry's Chocolate Orange ._.

Isn't she just the best ^3^ (thats me puckering up btw ._.)

Have a full read here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Terry's_Chocolate_Orange. Apparently there was a Chocolate Apple somewhere down along the way, and it's not the thing-on-a-stick you get at Hallowe'en ._.

This is my fave ^-^

I'm not into girls (or most people half a decade younger than me at this stage that would just be wronggggg) but these YouTubers have pretty interesting stuff to say....and they are kinda cuute ^^ Check out their links ! and no, I'm once again not getting paid for this wee promotion, they don't even know I exist ._.

http://www.youtube.com/user/comeatmebrooooo

http://www.youtube.com/user/TheRealJazzBertie

Blogger refuses to upload the photos I got of them I am so sorry ._.

Anyway whilst Google imaging.... <3

Feel like watching horror movies *__* laterz

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*godspeed*
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moqi
ɯod!

Idk about tomorrow...

....but now I wanna do some study.

Which does my worn out body no favours considering that I have just completed a 14-hour shift with a 45minute break altogether, 20 odd patients, some requiring more needs than others. I was up to my eyes in work, got my ery first needlestick injury (very very mild one, however,but still), have a temporary blocked nose, my hands are cracked from handwashing, my legs are tired as, my eyes are raw red and oozing eye juice, additional case of hayfever makes me look embarassingly similar to crying, and yeahhh I felt like a dope, but hey it is overrrrr.

And for once, I felt like studying medications. Or at least get some form of preparation. This rare occasion I will treasure. I have loaded up some foood for the night. Dunno if I will feel this motivated tomorrow, But you either do it now or never so might as well go with the flow.

Chill, folks.

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*godspeed*
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moqi
ɯod!

two words...

so tired ._.

but the day was actually....ok.

ick.

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*godspeed*
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moqi
ɯod!

Missing Gerbie already ._.

...and I've only spent 3 and a half days with her...I'm so sadd.

Sis helped me re-dye the hair...pretty much the same colour, just you no longer have to peer at it in the sun to notice its redness. Mum doesn't like it and I'm just.....I'm surprised at how disappointed that makes me feel ._.

He is asking me about bus directions again. Is he freakin' kiddin' me ??

Ugh. It's sucha nice day......I had some freedom, I did what I wanted to and I still feel blah.

The flip ?

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*godspeed*
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moqi
ɯod!

Updated @19:22...k, I put on some simple make up and it seemed to have made a difference. Mum thinks it's muchhhh better. Might start a beauty session on Blogger and tag it under Beauty ? considering....~

So today...

I was half a waster, and half a do-er, I guess. Can't believe my 4-day holiday is over soon and I got freckall done. Writing up for that Jimmy Wong Contest......the videos from other contestants are pretty awesome, and they're flooding in....

Me ? I'm just being that little last minute me...no surprises (;

Wish me luck !

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*godspeed*
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moqi
ɯod!

Facebook Ascii Collection - Girls

Got permission from my friend Jin (goldilocks) to post these here....

ButfirstlookatGerbie *_*

Now ^-^

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*godspeed*
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moqi
ɯod!

Dragon Boat Festival~端午節

I was on placement yesterday *__*

which means i had to get up early
which means i gotta sleep early in order for my brain to function properly
which means i was pressured to do well
which made me nervous at work
which made me forget it was Dragon Boat Festival -.- dawwww

But fear not ! Went out and chilled with sis and Gerbie....so chilled that I actually brought her home......and discovered that Gerbie:

• has her quiet moments
• love to dig dig dig
• shits a lot
• can go a long time without drinking water
• loves my fleece hoodie...she burrows deep and she
• squeaks ! but sis didn't know O.o
• has a dick o.O I....think
• enjoy a back massage once in a while

Iloveherorhimo.Osomuch *__* This is the first time I don't mind someone taking a shit on my hands, and washing her paws with her saliva, then wiping onto my finger *__*

oh gawd T^T

Anyway this blog is to make up for me not remembering Dragon Boat Festival, despite the fact I had already devoured a zongzi or two ¬_¬  Sources for the DBF related blogs are found frm wikipedia, just search duanwu festival for more info~

Belated 端午節快樂 !

Dragon Boat Festival: Introduction and Cultures

Dragon Boat festival is a traditional and statutory holiday associated with Chinese, and other East Asian and South-east Asian societies.

It is a public holiday in mainland China (since 2008 ) and Taiwan, known by the Mandarin name "Duan Wu Jie", as well as in Hongkong and Macau, where it is known by the Cantonese name "Dyun Ng Zit". The festival is also celebrated in countries with significant Chinese populations, such as in Singapore and Malaysia. Equivalent and related festivals outside Chinese-speaking societies include the "Kodomo no hi" in Japan, "Dano" in Korea, and "Tet doan ng" in Vietnam.

The festival occurs on the 5th day of the 5th month of the Lunar calendar on which the Chinese calendar is based. This is the source of the alternative name of "Double Fifth". This year it will fall on June 16th.

The focus of the celebrations include eating zongzi (rice dumplings), drinking realgar wine, and racing dragon boats.




Dragon Boat Festival: the Origin

Dragon Boat Festival commemorates the life and death of the famous Chinese scholar Qu Yuan (c. 340BC - 278BC).

A descendant of the Chu royal house, Qu Yuan served in high offices. He was a loyal minister who served the King of Chu during the Warring States Period in c. 300BC of the Zhou Dynasty.

Initially, Qu Yuan's sovereign favoured him, but over time his wisdom and erudite ways antagonised the other court officials. When the king decided to ally with the increasingly powerful state of Qin, Qu Yuan was accused of treason and was banished for opposing the alliance. During the exile, Qu Yuan wrote a great deal of poetry, for which he is now renowned. His work expresses the anger and sorrow he has towards his sovereign and people.

28 years later, Qin conquers the capital of Chu. In despair, Qu Yuan commited suicide by drowning himself in the Milo River on the 5th day of the 5th lunar month. Knowing that Qu Yuan was a righteous man, the people of Chu rushed to the river in a desperate attempt to save him, but were unsuccessful.

Note: Lazy me is actually copying and pasting bits from the DBF blog I wrote last year, and some people thought, hey, this festival is just here to celebrate a dead nerd ?! So this was my response..
"Qu Yuan is a hero, considering his continuous efforts to protect his country and its people, until his death. Honour and loyalty are regarded as 2 of the most important attributes in the Chinese culture, esp in ancient China, almost more so than "something cool" like gaining victory at war. if there was no honour or loyalty, wat use does a fantastic warrior have to a leader?
oh and back in those days they didnt have newspaper. poetry could almost used as a form of news spreading, equating journalism of the modern world. it is not merely the work of a "nerd".
thanks for d comment."

Zong Zi

When the local people realised that Qu Yuan cannot be rescued, they commenced the tradition of throwing cooked rice into the river for their lost hero.

There are two different versions to this story:

1) A local fisherman dreamt that Qu Yuan did not receive the cooked rice because fish had eaten it. And so, the locals decided to make zongzi -wrapped rice dumplings in bamboo leaves - to sink into the bottom of the river, in the hope that it would reach Qu Yuan's body.

Or...

2) A local fisherman had a dream that the fishes in the river were eating Qu Yuan's body. The local people came up with the idea that if the fishes were not hungry, then they would not devour Qu Yuan's body. They thus began throwing zong zi into the river to feed the fishes in hope that Qu Yuan's body would be spared.

Both stories have the same conclusion: zong zi were made and thrown into the river. To this day, they are still being made and eaten by households celebrating Dragon Boat Festival. An example is the red-been filled zong zi

The Dragon Boat

The Chinese Dragon has always been closely associated with yang, masculinity, positivity, liveliness etc in Chinese / Oriental culture. Dragon worship at the sea is a common practice in ancient China, bearing the story of 4 legendary dragon kings of the east, south, north, and west. According to mythology the kings have the power to control the weather and thus influence the ways of the sea.

In the case of the Dragon Boat festival, it may be possible that the local people believes in the sacredness and power of influence of the dragon, therefore, carving their paddle boats into the shape of the dragon, aiming to either scare the fish away or to retreive Qu Yuan's body. This is the origin of dragon boat racing.

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*godspeed*
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moqi
ɯod!

Can't wait for tomorrow !

• 4 days off !
• I'll get to see Gerbie
• (and sis, of course :p)
• I'll get to get out of this house
• I can work on my videos
• I can spend some time in study (pfft. well I'll try). and best of all....
• I can sleeep innnnnn.

Yeshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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*godspeed*
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moqi
ɯod!

Feel quite happy today....

...despite the rows and whatnot, resulting in headache and stressssssssssss but just feeling happy. Writing up my plans for the Jimmy Wong contest, aiming to get it done by the 15th but......hmmm. I'll try.

Did a bit of promotion on fb today, reconnected with some friends and found more after changing my DP o.O See thats the thing with FBFs (facebook friends). they like the look of you they add you. they might not talk to you but they have you. Cuz you look pretty / different / interesting. *snorts*

Out of all the things I have downloaded, I gotta say YY is definitely one of the most complex things I have come across. Being even more noobier than ever before (even by my standards), I was trying to create an account, thinking it's gonna be a piece of cookie. But nuuuuuuuuuuu, you gotta answer security questions, insert and reinsert you password, confirm your email address, confirm your phone number.....ugh. C'mon guys, this is a girl who had made ber fb account almost 5 years ago. Let me breathe =.=

Having said that, I'm sure the app will be worth it. The site looks awesome, despite me having to google translate bits of this and that. and am totally digging the racoon...

Am in work tomorrrow. Can't wait till tuesday where I'll see sis and Gerbie. Apparently the latter loves popcorn. Hmm.

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*godspeed*
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. . .

moqi
ɯod!

Bio#1

I don't have any baby photos.

Or at least any photos of me under the age of one... His idea. I was too sick, too skinny, too ugly, and I may not live past 6 months. What's the point ?

I hated being sick. I remember how bad it felt...and the commotion I cause everytime I got sick or coughed out blood. Now he is saying -no, screaming- how every time I get sick, it is him who actually took care of me, and apparently Mum did feckall. Well...

1. What could she do when he (the dominant figure) kept barking and barking and gripping hold of me, not even giving her a chance to be near me ?
2. He didn't exactly help by giving out to me for being sick. Oh yeah. I'm so sorry, like. I'm not saying he doesn't care about me. Of course he does, but mannnn does he know how to make a child feel like shit.
3. I was actually sorry.....for Mum. I remember when I was 3 (Yeah I have a tendancy to remember things from a very young age) I got really ill, fever and all. He gave out to Mum during allll this time. I had to go to the hospital. On the way there in the taxi, I remember saying to her that I was sorry for being sick and making him give out to her....She told me not to think about that, reassured me in the best way possible.......

Sometimes I wish I really was sick....so sick that it would end my life. This life that I hate sooooo much. This life that was shaped by him. I feel like a mere pon on his game of chess. But then I would think of Mum and say to myself.....Could be worse. Could be much much worse. Nomatter what, I will pull through. I always do. One day, I will start to take control of my life. I will live for me and her.

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*godspeed*
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. . .

moqi (the girl who is not allowed to talk to her Mum)

ɯod!

Tired...

but happy, and I'm not going to let his evilness spoil my day

(:

. . .
*godspeed*
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. . .

moqi

ɯod!

Cookibuq Quotes Collection ._.

Let the nothingness begin ._.

im not sure howw saying this actually benefits the say-er in any sticky situation.....but it just does ._.
"Before you get angry at me // burst out laughing at me // punch me in the nuts with a fiery grrr, I just want to let you know that I love you more than any other animal in the world. Even pigeons." PS quote me and consequences may be fatal ._.

teddies don't hug back....but Cookibuq does <(^-^<)

i love you with all my butt. i wanna say heart, but my butt is bigger ♥

your heart may be broken, but hey it's still working ♥
...
less than three
< 3

may i please borrow your screwdriver? i need to stab you in the eye.

[post pancake tuesday] I'll give up pancakes for lent.

no i dont kung fu, but am perfectly capable of kicking your ass anyway.

everytime i cry i use up your WHOLE roll of toilet paper :S what a waste. next time i cry like a fountain, just gimme them Student Union magazines...

@uber-cheesy chat-up line: duude, old lines like that go flyin out the window, into a bin and driven off to some landfill site ==

Reasons for coming in late for school, college, work, watev...
Stuck in traffic at Swords? Reasonable.
Got kidnapped by your dog i.e. the only living creature in your isolated surroundings? Inevitable.
Though it was a bank holiday? Classic.
Vehicle of transport broke down? Typical.
Pipe burst at home and no one to come fix it at 6 in the morning? Tragic....
Trapped in the bathroom by a daddy-long-leg? Epic.

if i wait til after dinner, il forget! *carves down in rice using chopstick..*

when you said you wanted a pair of wings, i thought of you as an angel. But i forgot...devils have wings too.

how i differ supremely from you....you can spot the thickness of my glasses a mile away. I cant ._.

Make tea, not war.

(to be continued...)

. . .
*godspeed*
. . .
. . .

moqi

ɯod!

Whoaaaaaaaa Mum was talking to that Shen Yang girl in the Ilac today again....apparently her Mum shares the same first name as me........which is super rare. Cool huh ?

Happy Children's Day...a time for horror movies >:]

Not that they were that scary....I kinda just focused on "A Chinese Ghost Story" (倩女幽魂) which has soo sooooo many versions.

1987

2003

2007

2011

Dunno what year o.O

Call me "choosing first before the others", but I gotta say I like the oldest one (1987) best. The actors were awesome, and the heroine Xiao Xian was actually a ghost, not a vixen demon like the other versions. Haven't seen the cartoon or the 2003 version, so cannot comment. I don't think the girl Yang Mi (2003) looks very sweet in comparison to the other girls....though they are all very pretty.......

Joey Wong

大S

Yang Mi





Liu YiFei


As for the guys.....I think Leslie Cheung fitted the character best. Dunno about the 2003 version, HuGe is not really my cup of tea -and I personally did not like the alterations made to the storyline- and as for the last guy.....he was just a little bit stupid ¬.¬ nice looking though. But awful stupid.

I saw on the news at dinnertime that the government is aiming to make hospital waiting time shorter within these three years. Well thats not hard, considering the buckets of people emmigrating and dying and whatnot eh ._.

Sigh.

. . .
*godspeed*
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. . .

moqi

ɯod!