Bad news VS Good news

Bad....

• Feels like I have done too little studying / assignment doing
• Ditto YouTube videos
• Still not paid the full amount, gotta ask the finance people.....

Good....

• Today was so busy, it flew
• Met up with preceptor who is young pretty and seems very nice
• I'm off for two days

Woohoo !


Soz for the ads ._. I made 0 euro this month but meh.

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*godspeed*
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moqi

ɯod!

Day one of Placement...Sweaty, but chill

In other words, it was like a heat wave, and ick windows and running around didn't exactly help much, but it wasnt as bad as I presumed.

It was busy though, thats a given, but I didn't kill myself trying to do stuff myself and I didn't have somebody looming over me questioning "so what do you think you're doing now ?" and you just feel like smiling at them behind gritted teeth "I'm milking a flippin' cow - what does it look like ?!" Ugh yeah y'know what I mean.

I hope I get on with my preceptors. And it'll be a bonus if I get my medication management done this placement so I won't be worrying so much. Gonna meet one of my preceptors tomorrow (She's a CNM - eek ?) and see what she says. Hope she likes me. The patients did, and so did most relatives and nurses, I think......I do think I gave off a lot of positive energy from having low expectations of the ward, and be magically "surprised" when I realise that it's not toooo bad. I guess it's also a masking mechanism for the mini disaster this morning....Bro feigned a headache so he didnt have to drive me to work.....I got so upset, I just went out, just in time to get the bus. My poor mum was so worried she went out after me....ugh. Then I felt really guilty for making her worry on top of everything. Then He gave out to everyone, and suggested at dinner that I take the bus in the morning = wake up at 5:45am = thanks for the support, bro.

Guys, it's really no problem, I had never requested Bro to drive me, it was all dad's suggestion. Then it was suddenly, ooh moqi the meanie is making him get up early.....I never said "no", mind. Of course it's wayyyy more comfy to be driven to work. Besides, Bro always comes back home and sleep till 1pm or so, so it's not like forcing him to get up and not letting him sleep. I can understand it's annoying buh duude.....ugh I dunno how hated I am in this household and now I just don't care. I was sooooo happy coming home after along hard dehydrated day and then halfway through dinner being told I was useless and mentally retarded just made me wonder....why am I happy again ?

Tomorrow, then two days off. Classsssssssssssssssss.

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*godspeed*
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moqi

ɯod!

Feeling pretty crappy right now....

You know that feeling when you've got people to talk to on the internet, just no one physically with you and you feel so so sooooo insanely lonely ? Him giving out about how useless you are, a reluctant to bring you to work brother and this feeling of impending doom about getting up in about 6 hours time to go to some place you despise with all your soul......does very little to help.

I literally feel sick. Pass me a virtual bucket please.

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*godspeed*
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moqi

ɯod!

Googling images make me Happy.....

One day I will go to China and have funn ._. Yes funn. With 2 "n"s for emphasis on the fun-ness of it all...
(Sorry guys, I'm just being a hermit ughhh).

My video making is going nowhere, but I'm determined to get it done. Determination is my only source of motivation right now. Just thinking about placement tomorrow makes me want to shrink and crawl back into my mother's womb and diffuse into nothingness purely by travelling back in time but yeah, that doesn't happen in real life all that often ._. The fact that I've been off work so long and that I have barely opened a book doesn't reassure this lazy heart of a paubernugglet ._.

Ugh. Pray for me.

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*godspeed*
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moqi

ɯod!

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Watchthisandlaughdrily:

Friends by ayelettaylor

Theyshouldshowthatinallprimaryschools ._.

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*godspeed*
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moqi

ɯod!

Busy working on those video ideas....

Got themes for all of them, just two more to go, them I'll start making the actual videos. I know people got more resources and probably wayyyy more creative ideas than I can probably ever dream of, in comparison to my little laptop and equally little brain ._. So I could kinda guess what I'm up against and that my hopes of ever reaching the top 25 is as much of a chance as meeting Jackie Chan, but hey, might as well give it a shot. And y'know what, I'm actually enjoying doing this, makes me feel motivated and makes the day seem more meaningful.

Trying on my contact lenses.....whoaaaaaaaaa.........Don't have that much time to tryout anymore considering I am starting placement again next week. Doing Monday, Tuesday, and Friday.... not toooo bad, eh ? And the secretary sounds nice, which helps.

Laters dudes,

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*godspeed*
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moqi

ɯod!

Dyes, Bdays and Promotion !

I dyed my hair this morning, and I have to say it didn't turn out too bad at all. Not the original Juicy Peach colour from Palty as I had wanted, but not far !

It looks like that in the sun, and slightly more red ! I think the colour will change, become lighter after a wash or two, because thats how my hair usually absorbs the dye...Will keep you posted on the final result !
So I used this....

Not a fan of the gloves, cuz i thought they were too "plastic bag like", they made a hell lotta noise that no one in the morning will ever thank me for making, and they were wayyyy too big, so I actually stuck to the ones for the brown dye I was gonna mix in. I'm glad I didn't otherwise it would've been too dark -.-

So I went out with the girls today and two of her guy friends, they all seem sound. Never had so much suchi in my life....and I think I'm addicted to wasabi !

Oh and attention to all those beautiful ladies and little ladies who go to Dublin City Centre; from Morse Street's entrance into the ilac Centre, a few stalls down, I think it's across from "Pagoda", there is a stall held by a pretty Chinese girl....loads of pretty hair accessories and jewellery. I got myself this hair clip

Too dark to see my hair colour ._.

bought Mum a bracelet...and got these rings for free

Go check it out sometime !

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*godspeed*
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moqi

ɯod!